Straight up, if I don't learn a damn thing about medicine while I'm on the wards, one thing for sure I will never forget is KNOWING MY RANK. The hospital is not a friendly place as a pesky little med student. You are pretty much as worthless as the gum on the floor that gets stuck to the bottom of your shoe and pisses you off for about five minutes while you try and snag it off and then curses you as it makes every step from then onward a nuisance.
Ya, that's me right now. I stutter in the face of an attending out of pure fear which causes my mind to draw a complete blank and say things I would never imagine myself saying. And frankly, its a one shot deal. Once you look stupid, theres really no going back from stupid, you're just plain old stupid from there on out.
But give me time and I'm bout to break the underground ranking system. For now, I'm a stellar suctioner and boy do I love scutwork! Hey, you gotta do what you gotta do, right?
O, by the way, my new career choice: Surgery...any kind of it!
